There have been 3 moments in my life that have changed how I view the world around me, permanently.
1. Holding a newborn in my arms after experiencing the bittersweet pain of labor
2. The day my grandmother passed away
3. My wedding day
There is no amount of joy and love I can ever feel like when I gazed down at the tiny human that I loved and nurtured inside me for 9 months, felt move reassuringly and sometimes disconcertingly, and saw on the screen of an ultrasound machine. None.
There were not enough tears, nor heartache when I went to the hospital after my dad called to tell me. I entered her room with a quiet fear, my heart constricting painfully in my chest as I moved to her bedside. I held her hand and leaned in to whisper that I was there, that I loved her. I will never stop missing her. She was a very significant part of my life, and continues to inspire me to this day.
It was not my first wedding, but it will be my last. This has been my longest relationship ever, even with a few very brief breakups. I know that I am not perfect, and neither are they, but that doesn’t matter. What matters is at the end of the day, this is the person I want to talk to about everything, this is the hug and kiss goodnight I want to reach for, and this is who I can laugh and cry with. We fight like siblings, laugh like best friends, and weather anything life throws at us.